motivation?

today i have moved on from thinking about my success as a musician, or rather, the lack of.

todays question is, where has all the motivation gone?

i have absolutely none - i seem to have lost all interest in my music.

i wondered if this was just a form of writers block but i have decided that this is much worse. i am perfectly able to write, i have the material and the ideas, too many ideas perhaps, i just dont feel compelled to do anything with them, im just letting them go.

i can currently think of two possible reasons why i am experiencing this problem.

reason number one:

no outlet. there is nowhere to perform - no audience wanting to listen and there is absolutely no need for me to record - who would buy the CDs?

reason number two:

no inspiration. this is partly due to the first reason but i havnt seen or heard anything for ages that has made me excited about music, challenged me and made me want to pick up the guitar and be a musician.

there is nothing compelling me to write and i see no purpose for any material that i do write.

im not gonna just give up tho - i am sure that this feeling will pass but its me who needs to make the changes - no one else is gonna turn up and motivate me.

so i have been thinking hard for the solution.

no luck as yet.

however - i am making a promise to myself to keep on writing and playing until i realise the solution.

(although i have a sneaky feeling that if i do this, soon enough, something will just happen, something that excites me, keeps me up all night writing and that drives me to perform to whoever will lend me half an ear)